I was recently lookin at one of my frind's blogs and its amazing how different people define their emotions differently...like love...that blog really is making me write this...about how i feel about 'love' (i won't tell all but share some thoughts)...this wasteful yet rewarding emotion...i say these two very opposite words together coz love can be very wasteful...if ur 'drunk' in love...u do not 'function' as a productive being .... but this feeling becomes rewarding when it is reciprocated....

 

Then again....confessing your emotions to the object of your affection might not be, in the very least, an excuse of 'better having loved than never loved at all'...and then saying 'not to expect anything from the object of you affection' which i find polar and (and if i may dare say so...)hipocritical... you can love, your love can be stong undying but y do u have to announce it to the world?? and most importantly to the person whom you apparently expect nothin from ?? ...is this love for some people??....i don't mean to offend anyone with this blog but i'm merely wondering if my own ideologies are flawed...i hope its just the difference of opinion...especially if we talk about an emotion so vague yet so stong as love....

 

Here's wat i think about "love" ...this emotion (accroding to me)...has different facets....love for you family, friends, mentors, idols and partners (personal or professional)...they all are different yet carry the same intensity....then again that depends how are u mesauring this intensity...hahahaha

 

I have loved a lot people and still do...but i (ideally) do not expect anything out of them...sometimes i can be demanding...but i've realised i've never asked for anything emotionally-substantial from my loved ones...sure i've asked them to call me and get me a present of something...who hasn't....maybe i should start expecting things ....maybe i should expect them to love me back....coz thats how the world goes...i feel this way n think this way...i want an ideal love, i want to provide an ideal love to the people i cherish...but i think i have to come out of my shell of idealism and look at the world the way it is...i feel like i'm wearing these glasses of differnt shades...and they paint my view of the world as i see it... love in the real world ...or atleast the world werei stay is pretty simple and uncomplicated...its almost like liking someone...i like u like me....lets get goin... i think and i know i anaylse too much....i need to chill...but its easier said than done... 

 

I believe myself to be quite expressive but i think when it comes to the real deal of expressing my true feelings ....uh no...ur banging at the wrong door....i keep my emotions locked away safe...too frightened to let it out...coz i am a very intense person..my emotions are locked in a box...almost like the pandora's box...i don't knw wat will happen if i let it all out...i'm scared i'll be bare...i'm scared i'll scare my loved ones...i like to behave like a child...pretending to be confused and ignorant...i find it better than showing how sure i can be about my feelings yet equally unsure about the feelings or reactions that they might have in store for me if i let it all out.... 

 

 

And another common saying about love....'you'll regret not confessing coz u neva knw cud have been...'...me have a few thoughts and querries on that too:

 

1. I tend to mix reason with feelings and its a hard job and almost a vain one...but wat makes people think confessing to your love makes it all better?...can't we be happy lovng people and not letting them know?...(but we DO let them know by our actions don't we...shouldn't that suffice)... y do people have to name emotions???....can't they let them be unaccountable, unending and ineffable...???

 

2. Wat if ur 'pretty' sure wat will become of the situation if you ignorantly and selfishly tried to let it out and feel light atleast for the moment...imagine the devastation it might cause your blissfully ignorant love...who might not have had expected such ardor from ur side...

 

I shal continue this ...another time....gotta rush...can't think anymore...i may have written quite a lot but i have zillions more to talk about it...it i don't think i'll want to express them.....Man...i just realised i have soo many issues!!!....have to see a shrink now...hahahahaha

 

Take care

Luv ya'll

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